Well, Sorry for the much drama my last post brought. I was so bored. So now, I want to rant about many random things that have been going around my mind lately.

First things first, I`m so loving MANILA as of now. I love everything about it. What`s best, I love total freedom that this has given me. Well, not all the time I get to be free. Nobody is free all the time. We sometimes have to give in to the things that should be prioritized. We can do things we want, as long as we limit it to the point that we don`t hurt other people. Because if we abuse our freedom and hurt people, we really will be in alot of trouble.

Well, pretty much. I`ll just rant about Manila.

I was in Manila Pavilion the other day. I was walking to Robinson`s Manila. Along the way, as I walked down Maria Orosa Street. It was obvious that poverty was there. People eating very little, people sleeping on tree stumps, selling fake dvds and wearing the same clothes everyday, It made me feel very awful about myself. Multiple times, I`d ask for more and more, but I`d never look at the fact that the simplest things that I have, are the VERY IMPORTANT things other people need.

I`ll be staying here long in Manila and this will be the longest I will be away from home. Well, I hope that I will learn alot here. I hope that I become closer to my family, learn more about how had life is here. Because, after two years, I will be living here as I move on to college.

Now on to the next rant.

I sometimes think that I made the wrong decision in falling in love with HER. It`s just unexplainable. I said so because she was a whole different person during the time that there was something going on with us and after the day. But despite that, I still have feelings for her. Though they aren`t strong anymore, I still have some. I really felt that I wasted those months. I learned alot from her, I really did. But I think I`d learn more if I just stayed away.

Well, life is like that. You win some, you lose some. And most of this year, I lost.

I know I can get up someday. I know I can renew myself.
All I need is help.